I don't know what hit me today, the life i am living just have room for 1 person. I am not making any new friends and not hanging out with old friends. I have this cluster of thoughts running around my head and making me feel very uneasy and don't know who i can talk to actually. Alia ( the girl i am crazy about and the whole blog is about), i haven't seen a glimpse of her since may 21. I called her last Friday and she didn't picked up and haven't replied. It's Wednesday and everyone keeps telling me it's over, but i actually like her and hope she will miss me. I don't know what universe is trying to tell me or teach me: that may be before i met Alia i had clear focus for the future and was doing great financially too, thus no time for girls. I am feeling agitated may be i have wasted 6 months without actually studying for MCAT ( one of the most important test of my life). I have forgotten about my life and thinking more about this girl. My life is at a point where i am just waiting for things to fall in order for me to walk on. Life in simple words is stagnant right now and thus making me fell agitated. Nothing has gone my way at all. I need to just focus on getting into medical schools right now for this 1 year and not going crazy over this girl.
I am not truthful with myself and with everyone else too. It's the time like these when i feel very lonely and don't know what to do, that's when the lack of love and romance reminds how lonely I am. I think starting to tell the truth is a good start.
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